Closeted and Family conversations

I think im agnostic, there could be a god, if there is s/he doesn’t intervene down here. Family is still evangelical after being catholic most my life (low key wish they were catholic instead). My partner and I have been together for 4 years, except for a couple week break about a year and a half ago when I broke up with him because he wasn’t Christian (cringing at this now). We got back together cause he said he’d try and go to church with me. Well a couple weeks later I started my deconstruction because things started to not make sense. We’ve lived together the last year, all with not going to church. My family hasn’t asked anything until recently where I said that the church is moving a bit too far and when I told them I was going to start looking for another church they iced me out (this is true). I have no desire to go to church, but I don’t think I can tell my family that, and they know my boyfriend isn’t Christian and I don’t want to lie to them, and he isn’t the type that would pretend. I did say that this is our time to figure out what we believe and where we want to belong, and that I’m thinking about something more traditional like the episcopal church. My dad seemed skeptical about that but it was probably a better reaction than I’m not interested in church. Thanks for the rant Reddit, I can’t talk to any of my family about this and I can with my partner, but he fears he’s taking me away from my family (he’s not, he has almost nothing to do with my deconstruction). Any tips on how to navigate this?