i’m so tired, i can’t even sleep or eat, it’s been almost a month since he left

i stopped crying after the second week, but my physical condition is deteriorating. i also have eczema and it got progressively worse after the breakup. i’ve been out and about meeting friends, being in therapy and doing my work. i’ve been writing a journal and taking walks. but outside of these times it’s just horrible tbh.

i feel so tired of living like this and im trying to do everything i can to eat properly and sleep properly. but the fact that i was abandoned just keeps haunting me. i have anxiety to the point im nauseous after trying to eat solid foods…

this is just exhausting. i have been in no contact with him since i blocked him. i miss him but i just wished he was dead. or i just wished i was dead so he’d be mourning for me instead of burying all his love for us.