Aba N Preach recent video triggered me hard

people say "just cut off your mom" they dont understand that I dont know how to live with myself if I did, but I dont know how to live with myself now too, realizing the damage she did and still does. she manipulates in ways that would make anyone want to strange her with rage, she would lie to my face and play victim and no one can beat her to it. Im 27 and im afraid I will never get away from her.