Im having constant violent thoughts…

Im 14m and most of the time i have thoughts in wanting to either kill, or put people into critical condition. In general i am harassed to a decent extent at my school and idk what to do so all i do is have thoughts of killing those who touch me or verbally harass me. Im at the point where i want to just let the thoughts take over and just get it over and done with. Someone who is my age stole $50 from me on the bus whilst i was asleep due to being exhausted after my year 8 retreat and threw a bottle at my head multiple times lives only about 3 minutes away from me and I’m tempted to just pull up and beat him to the point where i can watch the life drain from his eyes. Im the kind of person to not feel much depending on whats being said or happening but then get beyond angry on the inside and not show it if it happens a lot bit there is times where i just instantly get that feeling of wanting to kill or put someone in a critical state. Theres been multiple times where i just breakdown due to keeping everything in. Im just angry about the fact that i go to an all boys school and that it’s near impossible for me to fund a girlfriend without meeting them through someone. Ive gone to the extent of paying people in my class for girls snaps and i haven’t gotten a single one. I feel like at times i just want everything to just end you know? Like don’t get me wrong, i have an amazing life and Im happy with the life i have but i just cant take whats been going on anymore… Im sorry for unloading this is the only place i felt like i could just genuinely unload without being judged or questioned to the max… I hope everyone is having a great day/night depending on where you’re from..