Baby pinks?

I heard a term recently called the baby pinks? Essentially it’s the opposite of the baby blues. That periods postpartum where instead of feeling extremely down you kinda just ride the cloud nine high the majority of the time. But eventually the depression catches up and barrels over you like a train… I feel like that’s been me. The first year of my babies life was so happy. Sure some hard days but majority was happy and then the depression started catching up when we started weaning breastfeeding. I noticed it got harder and harder and then some life stuff came to be and now I feel like every day is doom and gloom and just the end of the world. It’s an incredibly lonely place to be too. I can’t explain my mood swings, my anger or resentment or disappointment sometimes. My patience isn’t what it used to be either. Medically it can’t be qualified as post partum depression because post partum is a period of about one year most the time… I don’t know… I go back to the dr in January and start the process of finding new therapist and everything again. I guess I’m just complaining… I miss being happy and the mom I was to my baby. Toddler life is kicking my butt in more ways than one.