I'm going to kill myself because I wasn't born female.

Pathetic I know. I can't believe it myself. How did I get so unlucky? I'm actually about to kill myself for something as mundane as my gender. It's so fucking stupid. Like it's actually the most pathetic reason to kill yourself. I didn't ask for any of this. My entire life is a waste. I don't know what I'm going to do in the future. I've tried sucking it up nothing works. I'm thinking of either jumping or shotgun. Which is better? And how do I make sure my parents are okay with this? I hate my mom for doing IVF I just know that's the reason I'm like this. It's too bad because I'm a pretty smart guy and it looked like I was going to have a bright future until puberty hit. Do you know what that does to a kid? Fuck. I could have been someone if it weren't for my condition. Feel free to make fun of me at least I'll give you the laugh you were looking for before my death.