Nothing makes sense when you're unlovable

Hi, this is not a sad post, just a schizo post I guess, I feel the more time you live as a unlovable person the more you feel alienated for every human experience, It just doesn't make sense to me how one person can go from a relationship to another, do people really love reach other? After all they went through 2 months are enough to snap out of It and start pursuing someone else? How can one endure a relationship knowing that when It ends the other person will move on so fast? Feels like no one means anything to anyone. And in a way every aspect of life revolves around this tail of romantic love, when It's something created by us, humans. Our value, you'd like to believe your friends don't care about you being chronically single but they do, once they notice no one desires you they're above you, and they threat you in whatever way they want bacause someone loves them. At this point I'm convinced love isn't for me, It's like I'm uncapable of receiving It, so much that my body couldn't process It and right now my mind can't even comprehend what does It mean, how It works. It's like any other ability, I can't sing, I can't be loved. Idk I feel so far away from the normal life of someone my age, things will just get weirder and weirder and It feels like an illness tbh that's what scares me, that I'll get so sick of loneliness and society (that purposefully wants us this way to sells us into capitalism) that I won't be able to be sane even If I want to, being ugly It's like the easiest way to get into mental illness, people reject you just for existing, It's so isolating and lonely, like we're forced to detach from humanity, but what kind of human are we then? Forced to settle for this emptiness, convincing ourselves there are other things in life knowing damn well that this wasn't out choice and no one with the acces to a better life would choose this. Anyways, I'll see what happens, If I turn schizo fr I'll let you know, have a nice day and take care of yourselves🤍. Sorry for my english.