How can you tell?

How can you tell if you’re in psychosis? I’ve been one and off my antipsychotics due to supply insecurity and I feel like my mind is slipping. I’ve had conversations with friends and days later i realize I sound kind of crazy. What’s going on in my mind is scaring me and It’s all I can do to prevent what’s in my mind from manifesting irl. I wish I could explain what’s going on but I don’t really have the words to convey what’s going on inside my head. I don’t know if I’m going into a psychotic episode or if I’m already in one or if what I’m experiencing is normal. I have schizoaffective disorder (I personally don’t think I have it) but I don’t know much about it aside from surface level knowledge but I’m not sure if what I’m experiencing is because of it or if it’s something else. Please lmk if you have any insight, muchas gracias todos.