Watching the color fade from him is haunting

I work in healthcare, so I have seen my share of dead people. I have even done after life care on people and it does haunt you but not like this.

My dad was in the ICU on a ventilator and life support such as dialysis 24/7. He was there for 12 days and some days he could nod in response and open his eyes. Towards the end nothing and the kindest thing we could do for him was let him go. I wish I didn't ask him if he was scared when we were alone. He nodded yes. The other days when everyone else was in the room he said he wasn't scared.

They took the ventilator out, and we all watched as he took his last few breaths. His body turned colorless, his lips colorless in seconds. It is haunting to see how quickly life can fade from us. I close my eyes and see my dad passing, I hope I can stop thinking about it some day.