Intimate life with husband

I think I just needed a place to put this. I’m so frustrated. My husband and I have always had different sex drives. Mine is VERY high, and always has been. His I would say is average to low. We’ve had a lot of talks about this throughout our relationship, and it usually doesn’t cause any real issues for me until it’s an ongoing thing.

He never initiates. Ever. So in order for us to have sex, I have to take that role. That’s frustrating enough, and it kind of hurts my ego and concept of like, how attractive he finds me because I have always felt like he doesn’t see me as like, a sexual being that he’s attracted to in addition to his best friend and wife.

Throughout the pregnancy we’ve had ups and downs with our sex life- the usual wax and wane that I’ve grown used to. However, I’m like 3 weeks out from our due date and he hasn’t touched me in WEEKS. I’ve initiated in a lot of different ways (not constantly, I don’t want him to feel pressured) and he either ignores me and whatever I’m doing/saying, or he’ll distract with something else, or he tells me no. Telling me no is definitely much preferred to the other responses, the other ones actually get me really upset.

I’m at a point where I feel disgusting. My body has changed more in the last month and a half than it has the entire pregnancy. I’ve gained weight like crazy in the last month or so, and I already hated my size. He tells me everyday that I’m beautiful but I’m starting to wonder if he actually is attracted to me at this point. I can be wearing lingerie that I feel the best in rn, and he’ll walk up, rub my bump and ask how the baby is doing. I know it’s selfish to say but I feel like a fucking incubator at this point. I dk. I just worry how much more difficult this dynamic is going to be after the baby is born.