my life worth less than a basket of laundry

my life is so miserable, ive brrn stuck on my ex, living with a dysfunctional family where everyone in my family hates me, struggling with school, little to no friends both online and in person, struggling with self perception, i dont know how much longer i can take it.

today, i swear im on last straw. ive spent all day sleeping because its my one escape from life and i woke up to yelling and screaming because i failed to do the laundry. am i selfish for feeling this way? i feel like im worthless. far worthless than a pile of dirty laundry.