Quirky dresser trapped in the body of someone who is plain and dull!

Female- late 30s. As a child and teen I felt very much controlled by what I wore by my mum. Im sure she meant well but I think as an adult it has made me an incredibly safe dresser- AKA dull. I think I would probably be quite a quirky dresser but, well, basically I am scared to be! I wish I could put on my docs, fun prints with pink hair and just be myself. Id love to find my style. Enjoy dressing my way. But also being post childen, im lost and stuck in this and i really dont want to be like this forever. Anyone else been in a similar position? How do you get over this? TIA