i’m just here

i don’t even know if this goes here but here i go.

my ex fiancee left me in april and my world shattered. i don’t believe in God that much anymore and I don’t know what to. I was seeing my ex on and off for while but that ended. i reach out to friends and family but they all have lives and im here. i was in therapy, but now i have to figure something else out thanks to insurance. i’m just here. i cry everyday, i get up do some tasks then cry some more and go to bed to do it all again. i don’t think my life is over but it sucks. everyone else gets to be happy. i fully believe this now. i’m a background character that doesn’t get to be happy, i get the bare minimum. my friends and family just want me over him. he wasn’t perfect neither was i. but i thought we were happy at least. i don’t know where to go from here genuinely. i dont even know what to ask this subreddit.