Shame

I wish i had different parents.

My parents are so stupid and cannot behave like adults, i really hate them.

I feel like i was born in the wrong family.

Sometimes i wish i was not born at all.

My parents embarassed me so many times, for example they used to post things on my social media, and people thought i was the one posting these things, and i feel shame until this day.

My mom used to literally take my phone from me and post herself on my social media while i was unaware of it.

And then i would take my phone and look at it later and i find out that my social media has stories i have not posted myself, and then it hit me, i realised it was my mom taking my phone and posting while i was unaware. How can you even live with this type of animal?

I get shame-attacks basically, i feel deep shame but i cannot do anything about it, and i just have to sit here and burn from the inside.

I literally cannot make the shame go away, and i cannot stop thinking about how badly they embarassed me, and i cannot do anything about it so i have to just sit and suffer.

Its the worst kind of suffering where you cannot escape it, you just have to sit there and just take it.

I do not wish this kind of feeling to my worst enemy i swear, this shame literally eats my soul.