Second (or maybe last) thought friend

Thats what I feel like, I feel like I'm the second or maybe last person you go to when you wanna do something. Most of the time it feels like I dont get to choose when we hang out, it's always up to you. When I do get to choose I wait all day until you're ready, which I dont mind but it's hard when you know everything that's happened in this house. You know it's not always easy for me to be here.

You're my bestfriend and honestly my only real friend right now, I have you and my boyfriend. No one else reaches out to me, no one seems to want to hang out with me. I know I can be annoying, I know I'm loud, weird, and often times too much for people. Sometimes I talk about shit that makes no sense, I know I'm not "normal"

I kind of knew I was last thoght friend for everyone, just didn't think it'd be you too.