Is "evil" an overstatement? Maybe my feelings are too strong...

Way back in 2023, when I was 13 years old, I joined some anime and gaming Discord server. In fact, I was already in a server that my girlfriend "Katya" (now ex) was in, and one of her friends sent me an invite saying "for you".

I joined the server, and at first it seemed very nice. The mods, mostly guys ages 16-24, specifically the younger mods, instantly wanted to be my friend. This one mod "Ben" (16M) didn't really know my age but I was a trans guy and he was flirting with me, calling me his husband and asking when we would get married and stuff.

Keep in mind that I also had undiagnosed bipolar and CPTSD symptoms, which this incident added to the latter. I told them I was gonna take a break for my mental health, but I stayed online for a last "goodbye" for a week.

They bullied me for it, making fake crying noises and going "OMG his mental health!" and sent me voice recordings of them laughing at me. The older mods did nothing and found it funny and said I deserved it.

Ben asked me if I needed to talk about it and kept insisting that I'd feel better, so I did. I told him that I was sad (for a reason I now forgot). He then told everyone on the server I was a creep, a weirdo, someone who was Dm-ing him sexual stuff, and then told everyone I vented to him against his will.

They then told me to join a call before they banned me, laughing at me, saying they wanted to hear my painful screams and cries, and also said they wanted to see if I had any self-harm scars, which is none of their business.

Afterwards, I said no, they left the call, and banned me.