I’m back and he found out right away…

Hi guys. Sorry for a late update I haven’t been able to post for awhile.

my friend, please don’t read this. If you want to, do it, just dont show it to anyone or talk to me about it. Reddit is my space to talk/tell people about my life and where I seek advice. Thank you in advance.

So um yea the title pretty much sums it up.

I was talking with my friend at lunch at I think aloud a lot and I thought aloud a conversation and I’m so stupid for saying it aloud, “I have something that I havent told anyone” and he’s like, what is it and I’m like, “dude I’m not telling you it’s gonna make our friendship really awkward” and I’m so stupid for thinking out loud because the first thing he said was…

”do you have a crush on me?”

and I’m like, “kinda” and I was so embarrassed there because like, it’s the day after I’m like I think I like him and I didn’t expect him to find out so early.

and he’s like ”wait, really” and he keeps saying that and I keep responding yes until I show him my previous Reddit post.

the bell rings for 5th period and he’s like, ok I’ll talk to I later and I’m like ok.

so flash forward to when I get home and I call him, and we just talk abt it and he tells me who he’s dating.

The funny thing is I introduced him to who hes dating lol.

but we talk abt it a bit more and omg his bf has the SADDEST backstory ever.

and I ask him and I quote both of our responses

Me: “if you ever broke up with <name> would you ever, like wanna date me or smth.”

him: “no prob not ittl f#ck up our friendship probably.”

and tbh, I was kinda crushed. I DID like him. I genuinely had feelings for him.

fast forward the next day and I just ask if we could take a break from our friendship for a bit and he said sure. so yea, we took a break and for a couple days, i was just really depressed. I didnt have a friend to talk to about life. About anything. I stopped eating for awhile. I cried myself to sleep one night because I didn’t have someone to talk to.

and then came Thursday. The day my best friends brother almost f#cked up my life. He told me that my friend read him my reddit post and knew all about me. How I’m bi, a femboy, and how I liked my friend. I was so worried he would expose me. But then I talked to my friend about it. He said he didn’t tell his brother and he was just making stuff up. I was so relieved and we started talking again. Now everythings fine. Thanks for reading and sorry again for the late update! Bye >;33