Waiting until I can test

This isn't a rant as much as a vent. We haven't been trying long. I've already suffered one loss at 9 weeks. I'm just having the hardest time waiting until I can test, even knowing it'll likely be disappointment. It's all I can think about. I wish I could test sooner. I want to know already. I'm sure this is super common. I'm just so anxious and antsy.