Gikapoy ras relationship.

Ganahan rako mag rant diri kay lately sige syag accuse sa akoa sa mga bagay nga d man nako gina buhat/buhaton, nya lately ra nahibaw an nako na siya ra diay tong nag buhat sa mga gipang ingon niya. Like scared of her own ghost ba, so nag adjust ko og understand niya to the point na gina pugos nalang nako na maging strong for us, pero lately bug at na kaayo. Love man nako siya and willing ko always i put down akong pride just to stand on the same level as her, even if it's degrading me na. I just don't understand why murag ako jud always sayop bisag naa raman kos balay, nag work, waman koy kachat or what, wa gani koy friends and d manko makig socialize like her. She's always outside hanging around people, since she has a trait kasi na people pleaser man. Then I'm always put second nalang. Everytime we have a fight ako nalang jud always mag adjust, and mag send og long messages explaining what went wrong ba, or what I did wrong, and very apologetic pa kayko. Asa manko nagkuwang, when it comes to bumabawi ako sakanya, since d nman pod ko perfect and naa pod koy flaws, d manko tao nga ma stuck up rajud sa past. Pero murag amoang relationship kay messy na kaayo, and I don't know what else to do. Karon we had a fight again sa chat, and she ended up blocking me nalang for good na siguro this time. Idk if deserve paba nako to fight for this, or just let her be bisag tanan ako gipang buhat karon para raman sa iyaha. Sometimes maluoy nalang kos akong self ga hilak ko usa kay comfort raman og understanding pod ako gipangayo niya. Kanang assurance ba. Idk why lisod sa iyaha na murag chore to para niya. I do exactly naman what she asks me to do, nya pag ako murag lisod lagi kaayo para niya. Bakit napaka unfair. Lahat naman sinunod ko, I put her first always. Ang sakit lang. Siguro dahil simula palang tlga siguro d nya gusto ng long-term, maybe want ra niya mag explore pa? Idk anymore. I really don't. I'm so lost right now. Wapa koy tog kay mao to, ga work hard rako ron para namong duha. Ga double-shift ko and all para naa koy mahatag niya. I just feel unheard, which is why I decided to post nalang diri. Waman ma tabian about this kay zero friends jud ko, no family to talk to as well.