Looking for Metta Resources

Does anybody have guided, atypical metta meditations that they particularly like/recommend? I have definite interest in metta meditation, but find it difficult to connect to the most common forms of metta (kindness to myself is much harder than kindness to others, I find the emphasis of peace or freedom in traditional metta to be not something I sincerely connect to, though I sincerely wish good things to happen to other people.)

Thank you!