how do you cope?

TW: TRANSPHOBIA, SA, SUICIDALITY

i try my best to ignore transphobia. i really try so hard. but it’s overwhelming, especially in the uk. it’s terrible on social media. i can’t see past it some days because it’s constant. completely unrelated posts will always have comments speaking negatively about trans people. we’re always brought up. today i experienced it to a degree that was so draining that i just feel hopeless. i was told that i’m a p3d0 and a r@p!st who wants to harm little boys, just because i use the men’s bathroom. i was threatened with r@pe myself. i was dehumanised in ways that made me sick and i just can’t fathom how we’re supposed to live in this world and pretend everything is okay? people hate us for simply existing. we are deemed the worst of humanity for being ourselves. it makes me so anxious, and sick to my stomach and i don’t know what to do. i don’t know why i need to pretend to have thick skin and pretend it doesn’t bother me when ive been dealing with this for half my life. i don’t know what to do, but it’s at the point that i feel suicidal. i hate to say that, but it’s where im at and i don’t know what to do