My mom keeps using her PTSD as an excuse for lashing out at me.

Hello. First I just want to say; Moving out is not an option. ALSO trigger warning; abuse mention

She lashes out, hurls insults at me, screams, etc. basically any time she is mildly or severely annoyed/irritated with me. Doesn’t matter what I do tbh. I’ve gotten way better with my reactions because I admit, arguing back and screaming wasn’t great. But it’s still driving me crazy. I feel like I can do nothing.

She keeps saying that me having unmedicated ADHD is not an excuse to forget about things, yet she expects to be allowed to lash out at me and not apologize and for me to be fine with all of it.

I have stood up to her multiple times. I have told my dad about her, and he has even seen her be this way in person, but he just doesn’t really care. When I turned 18, she stopped hitting me, but the other stuff still persists.

She is also essentially free loading off of my dad. She refuses to get a job despite having a degree, and my dad is fine with this for some reason. Well, she also says that IM the freeloader even though i’m trying to get a GED… I know getting a job is really really REALLY hard right now, but she’s had like 3 interviews that she didn’t want to go to because she was too picky about it and changed her mind.

I have no friends (personal reasons) or support I can talk to. I do have a supportive cousin but she just got married and tbh I don’t ever want to burden her with any of my problems.

I don’t know what to do. Sometimes she even tries to get reactions out of me and no one cares. It sucks. I’m lost.