You hate

Dear S I've been feeling different from what you last wrote. I'm still processing some of it but deep down I feel as if I have an idea just how bad our separation hurt you. Hate is a very strong for someone to use so when I had read that I stopped and paused and it seemed as if the world slowed down. And in that moment a reel begin to play all of the moments that I could have made better. Hard moment to stomach. Seems like I'll just haft to live with these facts of well life. I can honestly say I've learned to be patient in thought about situations. At the same time makes me wanna give 110% in all situations now. And with that said well over a year and I'm still kicking that dam dead horse. It's time I quit yearning for someone's wife or ex wife or whatever it is. S just know you hold I big space in my mind and heart. May peace and happiness always be in your grasp. Sincerely a old friend..... Just me. §