Going back into a mess.

I go back from a mental health leave tomorrow and I am completely dreading it. I’m more than a few years in and this has been the worst year for me because I was moved from a grade level that I enjoyed to one that I DO NOT. Taking time off was amazing but it obviously didn’t fix the problem, which is a school and a position that is a very bad fit or me.

I was assured that I should take as much time as I needed and everything at school would be taken care of. Haha. It’s my bad for believing that. Based on my experience at this school already, I fully should have known better.

I checked PowerSchool the other day only to see that the person covering for me didn’t enter a single thing in five weeks. This is apparently because the division is too cheap to hire on temp contracts - I was told they were hired as a long term sub, meaning they didn’t have access to the grading side of PowerSchool.

Okay, annoying, but they must have a paper list that I just have to input, right? My principal replied to my frantic email when I realized there were no assessments with it’s all good because “you have a nice pile of marking to sort through!” So who knows what the fuck that means. Can’t wait to find out tomorrow.

Oh, and the sub emailed me that they didn’t know how to use the bubble sheets for a unit test last week so instead of… asking someone… or figuring it out… I get to mark 62 unit tests tomorrow as well.

Like what the actual fuck? The absolute irony of needing a mental health leave because of burnout caused by overwork and impossible expectations, only to come back to MORE work that SHOULDN’T EVEN BE MY PROBLEM IN THE FIRST PLACE is just comedic at this point.