Anyone else? I’m still sick over it..

Has anyone read Fated or Forced on AO3? I read it the other day and I’m still sick over it… I was able to find it through an old Reddit post and I honestly wish I hadn’t. I have to have HEA, which this was not.. I’ve never been as affected by a book, although Depravity messed with me due to the SA. I love Matryoshka and have read it at least 4 times. I like a dark, cruel MMC and prefer non con and abuse but I’m reeling from this one. Have there been other books that left you feeling this way?