I'm a bad daughter.

I have this uncontrollable habit of asking my dad for money. I justify it by telling myself that he makes a lot of money and that he's wronged me in the past (treating me poorly as a baby). I feel extremely guilty whenever I ask him for money, but I keep doing it. I also have this dream of becoming a hot girl, and I've been wanting to fulfill this dream by buying new clothes and nails. I don't know how to stop and I feel so embarrassed and ashamed. I don't want him to feel like I'm using him because I'm not trying to.