Does Christmas/Mormon music trigger you?

Like many ex-Mos I’m sure, music has always been a huge part of my life. I’ve been singing in church programs since a small child, playing the piano for various meetings starting at twelve years old, played the organ at various times as a teenager/young adult, etc. Besides that, I was always very involved with a variety of musical performances including playing the violin for the Messiah with a local community orchestra.

Since I left the church around eight years ago, I have not been able to listen to any music with the church’s label on it, or performed by a Mormon musician. Christmas has been especially hard because I always listened to a large collection of Christmas music beginning the first of December. But even non-Mormon Christmas music was hard to listen to (I should also mention I haven’t been home for the holidays in years because I’m gay and my family is very homophobic).

This is the first year that I’ve been able to listen to Christmas music earlier in the year, albeit mostly non-Mormon/Christian artists (Kurt Bestor’s Christmas music still seems to slap tho, haha).

Has anyone else been this way with Christmas, Mormon, or maybe other ‘spiritual’ music they once listened to before leaving the church?