[M4A] can anyone just help me relax and melt my brain just to help get my mind off the stress and anxiety I have been going through I'm very vocal and I'll do anything just to get these bad thoughts out of my head

I'm a femboy who is 19 I'm currently just going through not liking adulthood,responsibilities and just my adhd brain making it harder and harder for me to want to grow up I'm sub I'm very nice I'm vocal I don't wanna be a slave or a Slut I just want someone to make my mind melt and make me forget about the bad thoughts for a bit