Hey! so im confused about this. When they say "people close their eyes and see an apple", do they actually mean i close my eyelids, and see a full fledges apple right there as soon as i close my eyelids? 

Do they mean not my eyelids, but at my brain i see it or have this blob of something there?  
(i like to think of it as something up in the higher parts of my head, somewhere embedded in the brain)

and to go more into it so i get a clear idea of what people exactly mean with this, can you essentially form an apple in your brain, see the colours, see the angles, see everything extremely clearly? or is it well.. a blod or nothing or just words or ANYTHING IN GENERAL ;\~;

How does this work? I do art and i feel like i can get an IDEA of things, but what does it mean to "imagine" it? 

If possible (because it would help a lot with identifying if this is something i may have), please be as descriptive as possible and elaborate as much as possible in extreme detail so i understand what they mean by "imagine an apple" cause i do not see it as soon as i close my eyes cause it is not attached to my eyelids like a stickynote. 

I know this is probably really OBSURD of a post but it is extremely confusing on what they mean because it feels so vauge. anywho, thank you and uhh, yeah.. that.. I'll check back soon! 

(also i have no idea what to tag this as cause it feels really specific, so mods send me a dm so i can change it to the appropriate/right one)

\[For context if this matters: Im ASD 1 + ADHD combination + other co-morbid things\]

Struggles with the literal-ness of Aphantasia