I consider myself a failure even though I'm abroad studying and living on my own

the fact, that I didnt even want to come here in the first place, only came here because my hometown and relationship with my parents was very bad. I dont feel like I got any particular useful skills other than living on my own ( but I'm barely managing it). I just wanted to chill in my country and take a gap year to discover what I really want after highschool but I did everything so fast and now I'm regretting it because I dont even like the country I'm in or my studies at all.