My dad's terrible. Am I supposed to be okay with this?

I apologize for the long post but i neede dto get this out of my system. 18f, dad is 62 and the only one who works in this house (i'm a high school student, my mom doesnt work anymore). First off, he smokes all the time. He drinks more wine than water. He reeks of smoke and alcohol but he doesn't shower. He farts loudly because he thinks its funny, burps with his mouth open and shits himself like a toddler (yet insists on saying that the amount of wine he drinks is fine). Now, that COULD be forgiven if he was a decent father.

I used to love him and admire him. He always worked a lot, but I loved spending time with him as a kid bc he was my hero, you know? Now I realize that he doesn't even act like my dad, and that he's useless and fucking weird.

He doesn't get involved in my life; he doesn't even talk to me, he just sleeps all day and ruins the mood when he wakes up. But when he does talk to me, it's always to criticize me, either because he thinks its funny OR because he wants to think he's still relevant in this family. The worst things happen when we're having meals, and the topics are always the same: he's either laughing or getting genuinely angry at me for having no friends, making annoying comments and "jokes" about my appearance, and complaining that I don't let him hug me because I'm ticklish. I'll explain these one by one because they piss me off.

• He makes me feel like shit for being lonely, and sometimes he literally acts like I'm a psychopath who thinks everyone hates her. He doesn't listen to me when I tell him my classmates are bullies and I don't want them to bully me. He insists on asking me why I don't talk to them in the mornings and prefer waiting in the car until the bell rings.. but when I reply to those questions, nothing I say is ever enough. I've recently started telling him that I will not be answering them, but he gets mad everytime. However, he and my mom never helped me with my social anxiety; ever since i was a little kid, I've always felt like a burden because of it.

• he's often making comments about my hair - never notices it when it's clean, but always points it out when it's greasy. But most of all, he loves to shame and laugh at me because I don't shave during the winter. Sometimes he'll go out of his way to say "it's not like you need to shave for anyone", reminding me that I'm lonely just for the sake of it.

• then there's the cherry on top. During lunch and dinner, he often tries to put his big ass hand on my back; I spontaneously pull away because I'm ticklish as HELL and it's not my fault. But he never stopped, so I started getting very angry at him whenever he does this, and he gets very offended. His favorite line is "am I not allowed to touch my daughter?" Which, frankly, sounds FUCKING CREEPY!! Out of context, this would gross ANYONE out.

Oh, and also, he loves saying "if you don't fix this, how are you going to have kids/be with your boyfriend?" And I'd like to ask other parents in this sub if this is a normal conversation to have with your kid. Because honestly it's disgusting, it's none of his business, and why would a man talk about his daughter's future sex life just to prove a point? What the hell is wrong with you, you fucking pig? This is why nobody in this household likes you btw

He's always causing arguments and problems. Our days depend on my dad's mood because he projects all his frustrations (from work) onto me and my mom. It's so exhausting, why can't he just be normal??