I need the world to go away

I just can't anymore....

Favorite aunt died last week, have to fly across the country, two 16 hour travel days to be home one day to say goodbye. Can't even allow myself time to grieve because wife and daughter need me to hold every last thing together.

Wife is working full time in a newer role that has her doing more at work and going to school full time which means she has next to no free time. But she wants everyone to put their life on hold until she is ready to do things.

Daughter is living at home I college, working, and has a life. Wife hates her boyfriend, and I don't like him much either, but she is 21, I don't get a day. Moreover, she only goes out a few nights a week, tells us when she is going to be home, and is, in general, a good kid.

And me... fuck, who knows. I am just pretending to go through life. Wife says anytime daughter goes out that daughter doesnt care about us, that she just uses us, which I do not think she does, as when I was 21 and living at home in college, if I talked with my parents once a week it was a miracle. My work is very rough now, and home stress does not make it any better.

On paper I should be happy. Good job, plenty of money, great place to live, and all I want to do is not wake up in the morning as the days are too hard trying to make everyone around me happy, as that is what my role has become. When my wife is mad at my daughter, she yells at me rather than talk to her.

I'm not really looking for feedback, just wanted to kinda yell into the void while I make some choices....