help

I was dating the girl of my dreams for almost 2 years. a few months ago, my grandparents both got cancer, I had to switch schools(me and her lived close by so it didnt matter) and my dad lost his job. I was overwhelmed and drowning. She didnt tell me, but i vented a lot to her and thats kind of what our relationship turned into for a few weeks. I was stupid and didn't realize it. As a result, she wanted to take a break for a little and we did. She said she thought we were too dependent on one another and said it wasn't my fault in the first place. When the break ended, we talked for a while. Ultimately, she said that she didnt want to leave me but felt like she had to. She said she wanted me to be okay, that she wanted to stay friends, and that this didnt mean she was gone forever. I panicked and spiraled. I begged and probably scared her a little. That was late October. I sent a text around a month later, 3 weeks ago now saying "hey, i just wanted to let you know ive been doing a lot better latelt and starting to feel more like myself again. ive been thinking of you, and i really hope youre doing well." No response, but I wasn't blocked. She also hasnt unfollowed me on any platforms yet and Ive seen her making nostalgic playlists and looking at our shared boards on pinterest. 2 days after the breakup we indirectly communicated through a friend. She said things like how she "probably wasnt gonna date me again, but things might change" and that she wanted to stay in contact. Its been almost 2 months total since things ended and I still have feelings. I dont know where to go from here. I dont know if she feels anything. I was going to get a friend to deliver a letter(linked [here](https://docs.google.com/document/d/1beJQD\_ksvca6uopLUKUTAaowAk1PMkFb4yLRZnvDiGA/edit?usp=sharing) ) and just hope she recieves it well and slowly over time reconnected. I dont expect her to jump into my arms immediately. But I dont know what I should expect. Please, just give your verdict on my situation and guide on where to go. I dont know what to do anymore except regret what I've done, grow, and hope she comes back in some far future.