I want to cause this on people and it’s terrible

I wish I could take everything and reverse. Like I’m doing completely fine. I see a random person that I don’t even know my perfect weeks are gone.

I want people to feel this for one second. Like I want to take all of the insults say it to them and know what this feels like.

It’s like I’m arguing with my past in my head like I can hear conversations but I’m not schizophrenic which makes me dissociated. Then it goes away. Then bam it’s back