I always get scared a guy is gonna judge me for my body

So I have a bad eating disorder right, and I binge eat. I’m pretty muscular I would say a twunk but a little thicker. I get really insecure and it has stopped me from going up to guys or on dating apps or doing anything cause I know most tops have said they like twinks from what I’ve heard. But like idk like I always get scared a guy will judge if I look bloated one day or my stretch marks yk. Are guys like that. I mean the guys on Grindr I have seen are really superficial.