You know that feeling when you KNOW somethings gonna happen but...

BUT YOU'RE NOT SURE WHEN?

Well I do. I dunno if I'm tired of it yet or just mad that I've been sitting on this feeling for so long. For context, I'm an intuitive person. My gut feelings, good or bad, tend to be right. Sometimes I see moments in my dreams that end up happening irl. Am I psychic? Nahh I figure my subconscious is just especially good at sensing patterns, so my conscious stays out of it.

SO WHERE IS HE? I've had the strongest feeling for YEARS now that I'm going to meet this guy who'll be a bit of a douche but overall an upstanding and reliable guy. The kind you'd FIGHT to keep as a close bud.

I've never been so certain about something since the time I refused to enter a haunted house after begging for a whole month to go back when I was 16yrs. The feeling was so strongly foreboding, even my brothers' jeering and mockery couldn't push me to go. I promptly sold our tickets to ppl waiting at the back of a loooong line we just got out of.

So anyways, even though I usually trust my gut, this has been going on for too long. If he was going to show up, why hasn't he yet? Why is this feeling still so strong. Why the hell, 1.5yrs ago, was I possessed to buy a WATCH for $150 as a gift for this man I've yet to meet???? I wasn't even in the financial position to do so. I was just window shopping with friends and then??? I couldnt get my eyes off of it??? The strap is a material I can't wear so it's not like I can repurpose it to be mine. I bought it, got it a lil fancy box that was complimentary, and walked out confused. My friend was also shocked I made the purchase, jokingly asking if I'd be a gentleman and buy her a watch, too.

Cherry on the top? I'm 100% certain I've seen this guy in dreams over the years.

Feel free to drop comments. Honestly this is halfway r/trueoffmychest material, but I'm just confused and rambling at this point.