Loose skin rant

Yall im at the end of my ropes with my loose skin at 13 i weighed 250+ and by 14 i was 160, 15 - 140lb and so on last year i even got down to 90lb at 5’1 obviously that didnt help much and ive put on some weight since then but I think the worst part for me is that when I first started losing weight I’d look like the other “normal” pretty teens my age the ones who aren’t scared to wear bikinis, crop tops, ect. Its just so exhausting ive put in so much effort all these years and im just disheartened. Im almost 18 and im really considering getting it removed so i dont have to feel this way forever