I think I'm already done with Christmas this year

I work retail. That alone says enough.. But I'm venting so of course I'm going to go on.

It's really, REALLY busy at my store no matter what day of the week it is. My job has me literally all over the store, so dealing with constant crowds and customers asking for help finding something despite being perfectly capable of looking something up themselves, but instead I have to look it up on my shitty work app that barely works. Then my runs take longer and my numbers tank. No one has said anything to be about it so hopefully it stays that way.

I'm working 40 hours a week despite being in the system as part time, so it's not like I'll earn any vacation time for working that. At best, I'll get a little more PPTO and MAYBE an extra hundred bucks.

It really stings because both my brothers who work less than I do have nearly a week off during Christmas, when I can't even get off Christmas Eve. Oh, and they get PAID. My dad is full time and also got the week off, and my mom is stay-at-home. So everyone is going to be able to enjoy their Christmas break except for me.

I'm so burned out, and I hate that I look at everyone enjoying the holiday with resentment. Because I want to do that, but I'm not allowed. I don't get a Christmas break with my family. I get Christmas Day and the day after off, and then it's back to the grindstone.

I can't even look forward to much of the celebrations because they feel overwhelming at this point. Even the little things I used to love are starting to frustrate me to even look at.

I can really only auto-pilot and binge on sweets until the month is over and I can breathe again.