I am breaking

I used to act like the person I was, and I was miserable, I didn’t respect myself, no one liked me. But now I have all these different personalities that aren’t ‘me’ to cater to all the people in my life, people really like me now, life is going really well but I don’t even know who I am or who I’m supposed to be. I keep comparing myself to other people wanting to be like them or better. I keep thinking no matter how much better I am than the person I was years before, I wont stop being that low and that much of a loser. Theres no winning for me, I cannot find peace