I hate my mom

Hi, it’s currently 4am and I’ve been up all night. I just really need to rant and get this off my chest.

I am a 15 year old girl that hates her mom, just trying to explain why I hate her gets me so upset that I cry. I hate her so much I literally can’t even get words out.

First off I wanna get some things out of the way: I live with both my parents, they are not divorced or anything like that. They are married. Both of my parents have both emotionally and physically abused me when I was younger and up until this year, although as I’ve gotten older it’s gotten less and less so they never do it anymore. I like my dad more than my mom. I hate my mom.

I wanna make this as short as possible because it’s just hard to talk about, without me having a breakdown lol.

She nags at me constantly. Every single day. It’s about everything. Everyone in my life and her life has told her that she needs to stop. My grandmas on both sides has told her to stop, my aunts on my moms side, my mothers friends, MY FRIENDS PARENTS, even my school. Yes, my school. They have called her in for multiple meetings about her nagging at me constantly, it hasn’t helped (obviously). She always makes some empty promise then goes right back to her annoying self not even five minutes later. She barges into my room, yelling at me about tests and things I need to study for that doesn’t even exist. She wants me to be miserable. She always yells at me about not hanging out with friends, but when I try, she’s made me cancel sometimes.

She forces me to go on meds which I hate. I’m always the topic with her friends and family.

I’m sorry if this is all so unclear I’m having a meltdown just writing this. I really need to go to sleep.