Im sorry i punched you in the head so hard you had a concussion and fell down.

Last night I got so upset with you because I blamed you for the outcome of the procedure.

I was even blaming you for the utis you have been having.

How irrational can can I be? How abusive and mean can I be? It isnt your fault

None of your pain is your fault. You werent failed by yourself. You were failed by your doctors, your lovers, your community, and most of all the people who are supposed to keep yourself.

You are a beautiful woman. Many men have told you this. Some have told you that its unbelievable how pretty you are and they cant believe how old you are

Your health problems and your pain arent your fault.

I am sorry I punched you.

This is a letter I wrote to myself.