Update 3, the next steps

Hi all.

It's been almost a month since I started my break from sissy porn, and I have good and bad news.

The bad news is that I relapsed about 4 days ago. I got super-triggered while high and I caved. BUT, read on.

The good news is that I didn't enjoy it at all. I know this reads as a, "I lost but I actually won, look at how smart I am", but personally, I'm really happy about this outcome. I didn't like it so why would I go back now? The 'big bad porn' that took 2 years of my life away from me, isn't as strong as I thought it'd be and wasn't enjoyable at all. I wasn't missing out on anything and this confirms it; now I know what will await me """""if""""" I were to relapse again, (gonna really really try harder now).

So sadly my streak is reset, but I'm still going strong!

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Profile update! I messed with some settings and deleted some posts, so now only my posts that reflect my new outlook will be reflected on my profile, (hentai, diapers, bad dragon mostly). You guys should be able to see it, but somethings might've slipped through, (LMK! I've made thousands of reddit posts, so something probably stuck around).

On the diaper-coping front, due to Black Friday, I FINALLY have a proper stash for my diapers! Seeing a dedicated space for my stuff is extremely affirming, (this being my first/earliest kink I discovered in my life), and serves as inspiration to keep my thoughts on track and focused! To compare: the last big batch of diapers I bought, (5 cases, 50 diapers total), lasted me about 3ish years, (granted I didn't use any for about a year due to sissy stuff), so this should last me sometime, at least enough time to carry me through my recovery process. Who knew that using diapers, which MOST people in the space use as a coping mechanism, is being used as a coping mechanism to recover from my porn addiction lol. I've been padded almost everyday last week and my mood has improved. I've just been getting high and watching cartoons mostly, (trying to watch cartoons I liked as a kid: Bear in the Big Blue House, Barney, Sesame Street, Roly Poly Oly, and I really like Bluey!) Overall, alot healthier than sniffing poppers and karma-chasing on Reddit.

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That's all I have for you readers. Thank you for your support as always! Take care of yourselves. <3