look different evryday

having tuberous breast deformity and outie is not for the weak. since i was hitting puberty these thinga have been so hard for me. something thats genetics and cant be fixed like that. ive only been with a one man now who know me wanting the surgeries and accepts my body totally but you know still ive promised myself the surgeries maybe 7500€ but i will do it. im tired of body affecting every single relationship and sexual connection. need to keep half clothes o because not comfortable in those situations etc. beeling like i do not belong in this body. also everyday looking in the mirror and not knowing who i am. everyday looking differetn. anyone else?