Wife abandoned me while in the hospital

It’s a super long story, but I’m chronically ill and she left me after 7 years together because she said I was “too needy” while I was in the hospital recovering from an emergency surgery gone wrong. This was after years of a very healthy relationship and her telling me she would always be there for me and would only ever leave me if I cheated (her dad is chronically ill so she assured me she was used to being in hospitals and that she could handle being there for my health issues), and we never fought and rarely had any disagreements. It was a very healthy relationship, except maybe she wasn’t voicing some of her feelings about being unhappy, I’m seeing now. She was definitely overly stressed that week..with work issues, money being tight, and because I was admitted in the hospital. She texted that she “loved me lots” then turned off her location and disappeared for the night, which she’s never done. I called her the next morning to see why and she told me very meanly and coldly that I was too needy and that she had been unhappy for 4 years even though we got married only 2 years ago. She’s never spoken to me with that tone in 7 years and it sounded performative , like someone was there with her maybe. We were regularly having great sex, laughing together, traveling, & doing fun things together, when my health would allow, so I think she’s partially rewriting our story so she doesn’t feel the guilt for leaving me. She actually never broke things off officially, but said she needed space to figure out what she wanted.. but then I panicked and hung up on her after about a 3 minute conversation. During the conversation, I asked why she married me if she was so unhappy for so long and she said “I thought it would get better”, but didn’t elaborate on why she was so unhappy or what I did to upset her so much. A few weeks later I found a playlist she made for a guy at work that had nothing but sex and love songs on it. She still hasn’t spoken to me at all after 4 months, but she opens my emails immediately and has forwarded them several times and re-read them all, even sometimes reading them at like 3am randomly (I set up read receipts tracking on them to see if she had blocked me).. she refuses to even reply to tell me it’s over, even though I have repeatedly asked her to, with no explanation needed, and told her I’d stop emailing her if she wanted me to as well, but still no reply. I can’t seem to move on because I love her dearly, but I’ve limited my emails to once per month, I’m trying my best at giving her space and to do no contact. I don’t need lectures or “tough love” right now (trust me, I’ve got enough of that with my current family and friends all being very angry with her), I just need support, I’m trying to better myself and move on, but I still believe she is my soulmate as we had a very deep connection but I think she just got overwhelmed with caretaking, and then when I panicked I made things worse by removing her family and friends from my social media. It kinda had a snowball effect after that and now it’s been 4 months of no contact from her. I do believe I’m somewhat anxiously attached and she’s somewhat avoidant, but I just need to hear I’m not alone here.. I forgive her, and I want her back so badly and miss her so much. Has anyone else experienced something like this? She showed up as an amazing partner for 7 years, coming to my doctors appointments and to the ER dozens of times, always good to me, and I was always there for her too, and then on this day she just abandoned me. I still can’t wrap my head around it. I just want to hear her voice, and hold her. She still stalks my social media daily with her “burner” accounts. I miss her and I want my family back. There’s a lot more details to the story so feel free to ask questions, but I just need to talk with others about this and get some genuine care and advice.

TLDR: My wife left me while I was in the hospital after 7 years together and has since been no contact for 4 months. I miss her immensely and want her back. I just need support really badly right now.