MEH

I just dont even know how to feel really anymore. Its all just "meh" to me. You were that one spark one light of potential hope i had and you snuffed that quicker then u lit me.

I tried letting someone else fill that darkness you left and it did nothing but make that darkness worse. Now i just want to blend in with it. I dont want to see light and i dont expect there to be any again.

For me days just pass in a blur a hazy daze. Asking myself why i do this? and why i do that? And why do i try, what does anything matter.

How did i let someone in matter of milliseconds break that wall i had built for years. How did i let myself believe, "i was wrong the whole time, it is possible" how did i let my self feel interest in someone else when they had none to begin with. Some questions will never be anwsered.

All i know is i dont want to bother with any 1 ever again. Ill never let someone close again, its better for everone anyways. See im not mad at you for dropping me after leading me on for a week, i dont hate you and still think your one of the most beautiful ladies on this planet, i get why we could never possible be a thing, your side and my side, i get it and to be blatant your better with someone else anyways. This whole last 3 months has reminded me why i will always be alone and have no one, you almost made me forget, almost gave me hope.

That hope has died, tbh im kinda like a shedninja. I curse the dark void for never allowing me to sleep bit trapping me in a constant nightmare.

Lol think about which ghost, i wish i could meet in real life to take me or finish tormenting me and im like well you do have a upper arm dedicated to ghosts for a reason.. i think i would choose mimikyu to go out or maybe just have gengar eat me..

Either way Game Over for me.