Not sure

I just bought some OTC medications and am considering taking them. I know the chances of them working are slim, I'm mostly banking on the fact that I bought so much/such strong stuff but it's at least a shot. Idk if mixing pills or other chemicals will be any better. I don't know if I even want to do this. I'm broke and owe almost 2k in debt with no way out in sight. There's no upsides to anything and I'm just tired. I mean, whats the point? We die anyway, why not do it now and just cut the suffering that comes with trudging through day to day. I don't know. I just wanted to post this cuz my family doesn't care and I don't wanna worry my friends. I don't wanna die but God what else is there? Any advice or support would be appreciated as I just really don't know what to do.