TW FOR DOMESTIC VIOLENCE & SA 


god help me. i’m 25f. in 2020, my brother (32 at the time) beat me to the point of having bruises on my arm, ribcage, on my stomach, and thighs. after this event i reached out to my sisters to tell them what he did, and they all ignored me (four of them). since then i haven’t attended any family holidays and refuse to speak to them unless it’s regarding my mothers health. they have since said that “since we weren’t there, we don’t know what REALLY happened. we don’t think he’d hurt you.” i even had a sister insist she was raped by her father as a child, and she forgave him, so i should forgive my brother, because “WE ARE FAMILY”. 

this is the fifth year in a row of christmas invites. my mother is now 65 years old, on oxygen, unable to drive or do much other than bathe herself, use the bathroom, and keep herself alive. my sister is now using my mother to guilt me into attending christmas. my siblings treat her like garbage and have insisted she should get a job instead of accepting government help, even though she is so disabled she can barely manage. she does not want to be around them and i respect her decision, just as she respected mine when i stopped attending. 

i am just so sick of this. i’m intending on sending a short message explaining how passed time is not an apology, and i have no intention on reconnecting with these people even if they apologized for EVERYTHING. my nervous system is on 10000 when i even HEAR of them. i have no intention of having them in my life if they have never had an intention of respecting & loving me. i have no need for these people in my life, and they solely need me in their lives in order to scapegoat me, and maintain their family structure. 

sending love to all of those who are receiving invites into a room where they’ve never been loved. it disgusts me and terrifies me how deeply they’ve tried to get me back, despite never treating me well, to this day. you clearly don’t like me, you’ve never believed me, so why do you want me around? i will never understand, and i can just be grateful i don’t understand having a mind that malicious. 

PS: what is with these people and sending imessage stickers and gifs? have some ACTUAL feelings. learn how to communicate your feelings without adding a shitty emote after it. so stupid. 



so tired of invitations without an actual apology.