Jd, this is my second letter to you…

Dear JD, I want to say what I wish I could have said while you were here. You mattered to me more than words can fully capture. Our conversations, our laughter, our moments of connection , they were real, and they shaped me in ways I’ll always carry. I understand now that things became too intense for you, and that’s not a reflection of my worth or the love I felt. I know you were navigating your own fears and boundaries, and I forgive you for stepping back. But i am not sure if i will ever forget you….as i am writing this now… i am mourning your sudden loss… you meant soooo much to me… much more than childish carnal desires…. You are my savior….from an incurable illness i was carrying with me for several years… Even though this hurts deeply, I want to thank you for the time we shared. …It was meaningful, and it deserved to exist. I release the longing to control what happens next, and I try to let go with gratitude for the connection we had… it was uniquely beautiful… it was reasonably and adequately satisfying… you remember these words? They are all meant for you… I wish you peace, clarity, and the courage to face your feelings . just as I am learning to face mine. And while I hope someday our paths might cross again, I will honor myself by continuing forward, carrying the lessons and warmth our friendship gave me.

Yours BD