I can’t stand this

I love you so much and god i just want to tell you. I want to tell you I see a future with you. I see marriage with you. How I would love to call you my husband. I know i’m being delusional but just you being you somehow has me so ruined in a way that makes me feel loved without you doing much.

God dammit Im ruined and I shouldn’t be because I can’t love you and can’t tell you this. If only there was one more plot twist to end this year off that involves you in the best way.