Sucking my soul

Who am I kidding? It sucked the life out of me years ago. I take way too much adderall. My massive script. My husbands. And a few others. And I’m so tired of living this way.

It’s the only substance I have had any problems with. I don’t really ever drink and I don’t take any other pills/drugs.

I’ve never been to rehab. My husband has years ago, but it was court ordered (he has cleaned up since this time in his life). He has also had many more people he’s known go to rehab than I have. Overall, he has pretty negative views of inpatient and doesn’t find it to be helpful.

Thoughts or experiences? I’ve tried everything I can do on my own. I feel that, at this point, if I really want to see change, it’s wise for me to call in the professionals.